No...I never really liked or rejoiced on my decision to study in Japan. I wouldn't exactly call my life here a living hell, but it's sure as hell isn't heaven either. Back when I was young, I've always dreamed that college life would be a place of intellect...a place where people go to to gain maturity, breaking away from all those bullshit childishness of high school life. Much to my disappointment, I found myself once again surrounded by loud, rowdy brats that were to be my classmates.... always laughing at the stupidest of jokes. I know I can't blame them as they were 17 years old at that time(I was 20), but I can't help feeling that I was rejected the sense of maturity and thrown into the shameful pit of immaturity.
Yes....I don't deny that coming to Japan has allowed me many meaningful things. Among those were learning a new language, knowing a new culture, dropping my Manglish slang (the lah...lor...mah...meh...why like that one...). I also got to go overseas...namely Korea and Turkey(will be blogging about it soon). All those I achieved during the long holidays, but back in the classroom, I will once again feel suffocated by the "children" around me. Never able to be blend in and adapt, I kept to myself and ended up not having any close friends. Many of you know me to be a person with many crazy ideas and jokes but those were when I'm outside the lecture hall...not on any works that require the mind. But know this that I can be quite serious when I'm needed to. If you want to know what's my nickname here...it's "おっさん" or "Uncle". It was given to me as I frequently refuse joining the brats in doing crazy stuff during lectures.
So....yeah...life was pretty boring for me. And since I didn't like my life here, I also didn't excel in my studies...finding no purpose nor reason to drive me. Many times where I just felt like letting loose of everything... but fortunately for me I met my senior MGS girl. She never knew how much she really meant to me...nor have I told anyone anyway. She have done a lot for me by just being around. So...thanks yo....hope to enjoy another year with you in Nagaoka University. Just for the record, she isn't the main reason I chose there.
So here I am....graduated with a diploma and now looking forward to my university life. Hope that I can get what I came here for in Nagaoka University.
Anyway....I mentioned that I graduated, right? Here's a few pics from my graduation ceremony.
Sawada Yayoi....girl that I liked but unfortunately had a boyfriend. Sigh...such luck I have.
Takano Shiho...girl who was my partner for research.
No...I didn't ask them to line up according to height but it somehow happen....hehe
The bunch that I was closest with....see that girl on the top left? She has a voice of a squeaky little mouse but have a body that will melt the iceberg that sunk Titanic.
Guys that I sometimes hung out with...
Everyone giving weak claps as we descended down the stairs.
If you are looking for photos of me receiving the certificate.....there are none. They sent one representative to receive on everyones behalf....cheapskate!
My diploma......just wondering, can I get any jobs in Malaysia with this?
After the official ceremony, we had a party in some hotel.....
The Dean giving some speech.....
Sushis and sandwiches....it was DELICI....nah, it was cold and tasted horrible.
Kikuchi...he's from another class. The one guy that wasn't childish.
And after that party, we had another small one among ourselves (same faculty)...
Steamboat and hotplate pork....tasted DELICIOUS!! Damn...shouldn't have ate at the hotel.
Had beer and sake...not orange juice like the party at the hotel.
Beer and sake also means drunks....this girl was so wasted that she kissed me on the cheek when I asked for a picture. Normally, she's the serious kind with little if no nonsense....always walking straight like she have a iron rod propped behind her hack. She usually refuse having her picture taken but this time she's the one who initiated. Told me "Randy, you are so handsome and cool, I think I fell in love".......gave me the coldest shiver down my spine.
The party was also an opportunity for us to say our thanks to dear lecturers and friends...
And that was it. My life as a college student officially ended. Some guys cried that night and one of them hugged me tight as he cried into my chest...saying how much he appreciated me and all. For that moment, he made me feel as if I was appreciated and accepted in the class....made me feel that it was worth it coming to Japan.
Sigh....maybe it was just me feeling insecure. Maybe, I had friends who liked me, cared for me....maybe....but i guess it's a little late to be regretting my past three years.
I hope....really do hope that a good life will be awaiting me once I move to the new University...
