Cupid's arrow getting blunt......

Fellas, I am as shocked as you are when I saw that I have a comment from KKK. But rest assured, I'm no racist and neither is the commenter. Just a simple case of coincidence at it's best. But for those of you who knows who's KKK.....wow, what an irony!! Anyway, back to today's story.
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Okay....okay....this I need help from you fellas, ESPECIALLY girls to interpret what went on the last whole week and give me a little hint on what I should.....or most importantly shouldn't do.

What happen after the date was the expected exchange of SMS saying how much we enjoy the date and me asking if it's okay if I ask her out again and her saying it's ok with a smiley attached.

Now that was Friday....

I had stuff to busy myself so i didn't contact her on Saturday and Sunday.... but on Monday, I sent her a SMS asking if I could meet her for a while after class. Turned out that she have an assignment due the next day. So, I politely apologise for interrupting her assignment.

I didn't msg her on Tuesday cause' we have a club meeting on Wednesday. But....she didn't turn up that day. Why? Reason remain unknown for some other unknown reasons....Anyway, I did msg her just now. Msg was mainly saying hello, how are you and other small talks. Tried asking her out on Sunday but she said she's going back home this Sunday. Btw,I can't help but notice how she kept her replies short. Realising that, I bid her good night and "Happy going back...." kinda stuff.

So? Am I in trouble or am I thinking too much?

Right now, I can't help but feel like I'm drowning in regret that I should have forwarded all those "send to * number of people within 1 hour or suffer 10 years of loveless life...." chain letters.

The day Cupid shot his arrow and actually hit a target.

Fellas....good news! Well, not really for you fellas but good news for me. I finally found myself a date with a Japanese girl. Some of you may think that this is something not worth blogging about but please let me remind you that I am "the feared one" in campus. The one who will hit you just by looking at him in the eye.....

Okay..okay...let me lay out my story properly.

It all started last year when I just got here(Japan that is). Back in those days, I used to look forward to having meals in the cafeteria...you see, there's this quite cute girl (who doesn't act cute, plenty of girls acting cute and that's irritating) .....and the cafeteria happen to be my only chance where I get to see her. Sad to say but it was an awkward situation where she doesn't notice my existence and my Japanese at that time didn't give me too much confidence to actually approach her.

Anyway, I first got my chance of getting to know her last year when I joined the Tea Club (Yeah, I was desperate enough by boredom that I actually joined one....and I was aware that a guy joining a Tea Club makes him teasable) . My..my...guess who's there? The cute girl of course!! I didn't join the club because of her....pure coincidence...luck too.
So I got her name....but that's about it. Wouldn't even engage in a conversation I tried to start (I was after all...feared). And since i can't stand sitting with legs folded under (umm...a Japanese way of sitting on the floor, called seiza)...I quited the "Tea Club" and went back to being a normal rascal I am.

Months pass by.....nothing happen other than what you have already read in my blog.

I entered the 4th year...and new juniors came in. And sweet lord, holy crap, good gawd, I don't know if it's coincidence of just sheer good luck but that cute girl was assigned to be my juniors tutor. From there, I got a chance to get to know her better and also....to get her to actually speak to me

Okay....so during last week's International Club (It's some club where us foreign students get together with some other japanese and talk about stuff)...I asked her out for a date.

Dub..dub.....Dub...dub....DUB dub......conversation goes like this.

Me: So....you free this Friday??
Cute girl: Yea...why?
Me: How bout we go get some grub??
Cute girl: You mean.....the two of us?
Me: Yeah, don't plan on calling anyone else to join the party.....
Cute girl: *Face blushing* Err.....isn't merrier if we go in a bigger group? Don't you think??
Me: Yeah....I guess you're right....

And I left it that way....with her rejecting my offer for a date....sigh, how dissapointing....

But.....that ain't gonna be interesting if i just leave it like that right??

The very next day, I bought a cute piece of paper, not the ones that we write notes in but the ones with ridiculous shape and ridiculous background design with an even more ridiculous price tag. And I wrote the magic word.....

"I won't bite"

What?? don't believe me? THAT is the magic word.....I know it is cause she send me an e-mail asking when and where to meet!!

And uhh.....our date was great. Went to this restaurant......Had great food, chatted a great deal....managed to get her to get use to being with me (she was a lil' afraid of me before) and agreed to meet again next week. Oh yeah.....

As to not embarass myself too much "in case shit happens" think I'll stop now and will write more if the next one's a success....watch out, I might not be single for long...

D.I.Y Holiday

Whoa... that www.coinmanipulation.com really does express your level of stress and desperation. But sorry NCS, it just adds to my frustation and depression.... Might try it again next time when I'm a lil' bit older and when toy figurines don't interest me anymore.
And uhh May C.... I don't think I'm gonna blame my potato chips addiction to exam stress. Exams' over and I'm eating more than before!!!

Well, remember what I said about curing my potato chips with chocolates? Well, now I'm addicted to both!! My room stinks of chocolate and there's PC crumbs everywhere....God help me.

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Well, exams over...but there's no holiday. Solution?? Make my own holiday!!!

That's what i've been doing the pass whole week. I didn't exactly play truant and skipp lectures....I attend them, just that I don't pay attention and read my favourite book and comic instead. And after class, I retreat to my humble retreat (which stinks of chocs), tear open a bag of PC (which adds to the crumbs on the floor....where are the ants when I need them!!) and watch my favourite anime. Not really a holiday....but I'd like to think of it as so.

For books....I've been reading a book recommended by Clement, "The Life Of Pi" by "Yann Matel". It's a book about a young Indian boy (who practices Christianship, Islam, and Hindu.) who survived a shipwreck and got stranded on a small lifeboat with a tiger. Yeah, a boy and a tiger on a boat....sounds like Calvin and Hobbes on a fishing trip but not quite so....you see, the tiger here is a REAL tiger and doesn't speak english. Amazingly, the boy manage to survive 277 days not being eaten. How?? Well, I think I'll purposely leave that part out just to fire up your curiosity. Just in case you are still not curious enough, the author's choice of words qualifies him as a master Crapper.

Hmm....I guess it's just that. Nothing much other than routine classes and cooking my own meals. Life is soooo routinely boring that I'd actually celebrate if World War 3 broke out. Then I'd volunteer as a soldier and go dogde bullets and grenades, fighting a meaningless war.....all just to escape my current mundane life. I'm aware that my words here my anger beauty pageants who forever wishes for "world peace" but I'd seriously rather suffer their wrath than going through another day similar to today...and yesterday....and the day before that. Even "the Life of Pi" is starting to lose me....

Sigh.....I think I'm sooo seriously spriritually depress that I've lost all my passion for everything. I feel that I desperately need something to light up my life but I don't know what. one poor lost soul looking for a door in a maze.....
one poor blind dude looking for light on bright sunny day....
one heart screaming out in pain to the world unheard.....
one bored dude sitting behind his computer indifferent to everything....

Sigh...guess I'll get back to www.coinmanipulation.com . Sorry I dragged you guys with me on my path of misery....but this does relieve me by the tiniest bit. Remember the story about my senior who ran away?? Now I know why.....



PS: I've been reading my own blogs and I notice that i tend to write in incoherrence...tend to run away from topic. Is this a sign of me losing my mind?? Or am I thinking too much and instead I should lose my mind a little??

The Greatest Joy as a student....

Whoa...now that's umm...
"maybe in later years get a heart attack from all the accumulated cholesterol, a little hypertension with the excess salt, a blood clotting disorder from the treatment of the heart attack and hypertension, lose your hair from eating too much msg, get swollen ankles and have difficulty breathing because of oedema, uh...possibly get an embolism in your lung, stop breathing, and then say bye bye to planet earth. minor consequences"
That's troubling...guess i better stop eating. but what am I gonna do with that 4 jumbo pack of potato chips sitting on my shelf?

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I remember I used to say..the greatest joy as a student is the time after exams, before getting results. Sigh...little did I know such bliss is of non-existence in Japan. My exams finished last Friday...after a gruesome week of 17 papers. Yeah, 17 different subjects to abuse my brains with. I actually got a brain-cramp, same like leg cramp after running too much. Not a very pleasant experience. And guess what?? No holidays after.....They torture you for a week plus, let you have your weekend trying to recover from our lack of sleep, then hand you the results on Monday.

Sigh....well, no point complaining anyway.

Okay....Let's talk about how I spent my weekend shall we?? Not that you have any choice....better read what I have to say or else I'll repeat everything in my next post.

Exams' officially over at Friday noon. Having my brains physically tortured for so long, I was dying to release stress by wacking something, so I asked a few of my classmates out for a game of pool. They gave me the Frankenstein look and plainly said they have to sleep.... another claimed he have brain hemorrhaige. And my usual St.Davidian gang is too far away in Malaysia. ARGHHHHH...where are my friends when i need them?

And so i called the MGS girl, my usual partner in wasting money on pleasantries,...."Hey MGS, let's go somewhere and do something!!" ....and she refused..."Harr?!! What?? No!" . Damn....I must have sounded desperate at that time. And by the way she replied me, there must be something wrong with the way I asked. I mean, you don't usually ask a girl who's not your girlfriend to "go somewhere" and "do something".
Realising that, I rephrase myself asking her to join me for a game of pool...politely this time. Well, she accepted THIS time.

Then I called one of my junior, a Thai girl...
"Heyss...you free?"
"Yes, anything"
"Let's go play pool..."
"With you?? I uhh....I don't know how to play."
"...no worries, I'll teach you."
"Uhm....no thank you. Maybe next time."
"Really? Aww..that's too bad, just me and MGS would be a lil' boring...."
"Huh? MGS's going?...Okay, I'll go too!!"
".................."

As you can see from the conversation we had, I think I gave her the impression that i was trying to hit on her. Man, do I need to improve on my way of asking girls out!!!

Anyways, another guy joined in, which makes the four of us, and we had a great time whacking balls for three hours. Boy, I never knew it was so much fun playing with a stick and balls!! ESpecially when there's four members at it. Well.....I wasn't exactly playing pool, but instead hitting them balls with vengeance. Every hit followed by hissing steam coming out from my ears. Only after 5 games did i manage to cool down enough to play a slow, decent game of pool, that I actually aim before shooting.

Hmm.....exams can do that to people, eh? Even to a half-crustacean like me. And to say that, don't think I've ever been stressed up like this before. Seriously wonder why is it that I stress about something that I've not stressed about before.

Well, whatever that was, it's over. And starting next week will be my other campus' friends exams.....exams? HAH!! "Enjoy" your exams you "$#"%$('&!!!



PS: All the best for your exams!!